Unloading the weight of the world - Day 15 of 30 day writing challenge

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30-Day writing challenge through Kale & Cigarettes (500 words)

I have a unique iPhone text sound for my favorite people. I dreamed this morning right before waking up of one of my favorite person text sounds. While still dreaming, the text read "I dropped 10". Then I woke up. I laid there in bed trying to figure out what it meant.

Just drop it

What, he dropped 10 lbs? He fell down 10 steps? His stock when down by $10? He spent $10-something on something? Or rather, what am I trying to tell myself as our dream characters emulate our own unconscious messages.

I just remembered that last night I started the book The Women Who Run With the Wolves. It had been recommended to me for years by various people and I finally bought it about 6 months ago. Last night I began to read. I read paper books—the kind with pages that you hold with your hands and turn with your fingertips. I'm old school. I don't like to read books on technology. That is not escaping into a story or relaxing. I enjoy curling up on a couch with a booklight.

The wild women who have been forgotten because they are wild and free. I have not forgotten my feminine or wild side. I often have silent conversations with myself about how I'm not a feminist fighting for equal rights with men. I am a firm believer in embracing the feminine inside me and not wanting to be equal.

Don't hold the weight of the world

What does this have to do with "I dropped 10"? In my dream interpretation group of one—except you are here too, the reader (at least someone is listening)—I have to go with my first assumption about dropping pounds. Except, I'm not referring to weight loss and dieting. I don't do diets. That word reminds me of the college-days and Peanut Butter-Celery diet where you lost 5 lbs and then gain 10 lbs the following week. Nutrition and lifestyle are the keys to health. I'm talking about not holding the weight of the world.

I believe that dreams back-to-back build upon each other once interpretted consciously. Remember the other night (Day 14) I dreamed I pulled out a big tape-worm like entity from my unconscious self. Now I feel 10 lbs lighter emotionally? It was like the tape from a casette tape that had been unwoven. Back to my old 10-year-old self who would make music tapes with my tape recorder sitting next to my clock radio. Unlike the modern playlists through iTunes, many of my songs were cut off at the start because first I'd hear them and then run across the room to hit Play to get as much as I could. Gone are those days. My 10-year-old girl self dreaming of those songs from the late 70's...

Be fearless

I felt enlightened as I woke. I was not at all concerned that my favorite person actually didn't send me a text (although I did inform him of this dream image as I was waiting for my coffee this morning; I was hoping it was a premonition and he would explain). I feel lighter with weight lifted. I even had a couple private conversations just this morning broaching subjects that I may not have dealt with before today due to fear of an unfavorable response. That's cool.